She walked through the fair in hopes of finding something that was lost many years ago. She's spent many years wandering aimlessly through life searching for what's missing. She's changed herself and she's changed her scenery and yet she hasn't found what's missing. She's tired of walking and tired of searching. So she sits on the ground and starts crying. She cries and cries until a stranger stops in front of her and asks if she's okay. She stops crying and looks up at this stranger with the shaggy hair and the ripped jeans and said no. He offers his hand to help her up onto her feet and together they walk to the nearest bench. She couldn't help herself, she started crying into this guys shirt while being helpd. She told him everything all while he lsitened. She couldn't help but fall for him right then in this moment of self loathing and self hatred. When all the tears were gone from her body and she was left with the shuddering aftershock of crying for so long and so hard to this stranger, she lifted her head and realized that she was alone. She looked all around for the boy with the shaggy hair and the ripped jeans but she could just not find him. She finally gives up trying, she goes home and gets under her covers and looks back on her day of searching while preparing for the search to continue tomorrow. She doesn't know if she will ever find that piece of her that she'd lost so many years ago.

Sometimes I just can't even take it anymore.

You're so annoying. You're so insecure. You'd be prettier if you were skinny. Yeah, you have a great personality, but your body isn't very much desired. I hear it all the time. I try to love myself and put what people say past me but I just seem to not be able to. I just want to cry my eyes out constantly. Why must I be everything I don't want to be? For once in my life, I just want to know what it feels like to not be everything you hate.

I wanna know what made me unbeautiful

Don't hang up. Can't we talk?
So confused, it's like I'm lost
What went wrong? What made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me - I'm unchangeable
When did we fall apart?
Or did you lie from the start
When you said it's only you?
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we were unbreakable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forevermore
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
'Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
And deep inside, I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forevermore
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
'Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, 'cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out, get out of my head now
Because we're much better altogether
Can't let go

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forevermore
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
'Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forevermore
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
'Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
Made me unbeautiful

Am I Ready For Love?

Sometimes I wonder how it's gonna feel. Will my first love be true and real? Will I be ready when my heart starts to fall? What will I do when my love comes to call? And my daddy tells me that I light up his world. Everyday he says, 'darling you're my best girl.' He tried to teach me from the very start the meaning of love so nobody breaks my heart. Will my love come in a bowl of fire? Will it be filled with hope and desire? Will my love come in a pouring rain? Am I ready for the joy, am I ready for the pain? Am I ready for the boy, am I ready for love? I know I'm not a little girl anymore because I'm feeling things I've never felt before, sweet sensations and anticipations. Calling commotion to my emotions and I hear the words my daddy said to me. He said 'be true to yourself and keep your spirit free and love will find you one way or another. Be good to yourself and be good to each other.' Will my love come in a bowl of fire? Will it be filled with hope and desire? Will my love come in a pouring rain? Am I ready for the joy, am I ready for the pain? Am I ready for the boy, am I ready for love? It's a run around the world and it's moving so fast though I wanna find a love that's gonna last. A love so strong that I can withstand the weight of the world in the palm of its hand. Will my love come in a bowl of fire? Will it be filled with hope and desire? Will my love come in a pouring rain? Am I ready for the joy, am I ready for the pain? Am I ready for the boy, am I ready for this game? Am I ready for the kiss, am I ready for the stars? Am I ready for the bliss, am I ready for love?

What Would Happen

I've never been defenseless. I can't even make sense of this. You speak and I don't hear a word. What would happen If I got too close to you? You're the only one that I can't lie to. I thought I could resist you. I thought that I was strong. Somehow you were different from what I've known. I didn't see you coming. You took me by surprise and you stole my heart before I could say no. You think I look the best when my hair is a mess. I can't believe you exist; I could get used to this. You listen to me when I'm depressed and it doesn't seem to make you like me less. Walls of insincerity, shifting eyes and vacancy, vanished when I saw your face. All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you. The lingering question kept me up, 2 AM, who do you love? I wonder 'til I'm wide awake and now I'm pacing back and forth wishing you were at my door. I'd open up and you would say 'It was enchanting to meet you.' All I know is I was enchanted to meet you. Please don't be in love with someone else. Please don't have somebody waiting on you. This night is sparkling, don't you let it go. I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home. I'll spend forever wondering if you knew. This night is flawless, don't you let it go. I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone. I'll spend forever wondering if you know I was enchanted to meet you.